My past is riddled with shattered places restored and made whole through God’s touch. Being honest enough with God to admit my own failures evoked His grace and mercy, so I can approach God’s throne clean and without sinful blemish. Whew!
The remaining wounds where my body or soul was abused are part of a perplexing, ongoing process. God immediately provided healing, but there seem to be layers like the peeling of an onion. God’s indwelling Spirit is ever so gently working to completely heal all things hidden through my denial, stubbornness, or enemy lies.
Several years ago I knew God was prodding me forward to deal with areas to which I had only allowed Band-Aid applications instead of total cleansing of old wounds. I wrestled and fought with God, worried if I explored my past even with Him, perhaps I would drown in horrifying memories and never return.
Satan knows our hidden wounds (after all, he was the instigator). The enemy uses past hurts to question God’s goodness and even our worth as a person, and to isolate us from others and from God. The last thing the enemy wants is our total freedom; he works hard to convince us we should keep some things hidden and locked away.
Fortunately, God is not a part-time-God, nor a part-time-redeemer and restorer. Jesus’ grace, mercy, and healing are free, full, and complete.
One night I dreamed Jesus was holding my hand. He walked me through my past, showing how He was there, how He loved and cared for me through the moments of abuse, and how His presence heals all wounds. The process was painful, but only because of my own unfounded fears.
God has walked me through an abundance of issues and hurts, and each time the fear lessens and the anticipation grows. Now when I sense His beckoning to go deeper, I might whimper a touch but I rejoice as God guides me forward in the process to become more like His precious Son, Jesus.
And as God tenderly pulls away layers concealed in darkness, His light cleanses, renews, and brings wonderful freedom.
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds” (Psalm 147:3).
“Send forth your light and your truth, let them guide me; let them bring me to your holy mountain, to the place where you dwell” (Psalm 43:3 NIV).
Because there is no memory too dark, no sin too hidden, and no abuse too great for the healing touch of God.
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P.S. We’d love to know your thoughts; be sure to share in the comments section below. This month we will draw TEN winners from our commenters and the winners will receive one of these two books, Hope for a Hurting Heart or To Let You Know I Care by our featured author this month, Cheryl Karpen.
Lisa Buffaloe is Radio host on Living Joyfully Free, an avid blogger, writer, and speaker. Her past experiences—molestation by a baby-sitter, assault, rape by a doctor, divorce, being stalked, cancer, death of loved ones, seven surgeries, and eleven years of chronic illness from Lyme Disease—bless her with a backdrop to share with others God’s amazing promises of healing, restoration, and renewal. www.lisabuffaloe.com www.livingjoyfullyfree.com