I can’t help but wonder, today being the day after New Year’s Day: Did you make a resolution list? We’re 24 hours in. How’s it going so far?
I have to be honest and admit I never make a resolution list. Each year I set out to write “the list”, but no words reach the page. It’s like the enemy of my soul beats me to the punch. His list is far worse than a mere resolution reminder. Instead, it’s an ongoing list of my “un” accomplishments.
I didn’t keep to my diet (in fact, I GAINED weight).
I have no discipline.
I didn’t handle my money very well (always seem to struggle).
I am not trustworthy.
I didn’t finish my novel I started.
I have no focus.
I faced struggles and challenges with my son.
I am a horrible parent.
I faced struggles and challenges with my husband.
I am not lovable.
I didn’t devote enough quiet time to God.
Have I mentioned lack of discipline?
I still struggle with painful memories of my past.
I will never be emotionally healed.
I struggled with my health.
I am destined to be sick my entire life.
The list of accusations grows longer each year. I fear writing out my resolutions because I don’t want to be reminded of my failures.
Am I alone in this? Does anyone else battle fears of setting goals? There has to be a point where we face our fears, failures and fear of failure head-on and start fighting back.
One of my favorite authors, Madeleine L’Engle said it best: “We have to be braver than we think we can be, because God is constantly calling us to be more than we are.”
How does one do this “Be brave” thing? Maybe the trick is to change our mode of operation, our thinking.
Confession: Everything I try to do in my own strength, I fail miserably at. MISERABLY!
Sometimes I get so wrapped up in the doing, I forget about the asking.
I forget that God is interested in every aspect of our lives. He desires to be involved. He says, “Ask me!”
ASK. Maybe that’s been the missing link all these years.
Simple asking. Trusting. A journal entry seems more appropriate than a list.
Thank you for granting me another year.
Reveal what you would have me do.
Help me to accept your plan, trust your timing.
Help me get out of the way so your purposes may be accomplished in my life.
Strengthen me to walk the steps you’ve ordered and guide me the entire way.
In Jesus’ name I pray that the year 2013 truly is the year of You, Lord.”
“For I know the thoughts and plans I have for you,” says The Lord, “plans of good and not evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Jer. 29:11
Friend, I invite you to join me, to let go of your own goals and listen for God’s.
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Aj is a blogger, bookworm, wife and mommy, and an author of children’s books, spiritual thrillers, and inspirational works. Aj’s blog, Shattered Perspectives, is dedicated to encouraging and helping women who have suffered and/or are struggling with abuse. In her spare time Aj can be found nursing cold Diet Cokes and searching for awesome bargains in nearby thrift stores. She resides in Florida with her husband, son, two dogs and the biggest diva of a Siamese cat ever, and can be reached by email at email@example.com. For media requests pertaining to Write Where It Hurts, please contact Aj at info@WriteWhereItHurts.org.
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