Last week was our first link-up on When A Woman Finds Her Voice, and that link up sparked some awesome conversation and heart-connections. We’ll be doing it here each Wednesday, this linking up and finding our voices, and oh how we hope you join us. Whether you’re a worn-out mama, a worry-wart wife, or a confident gal ready to share your heart-message with the world, I do hope you’ll join us from your blog, or if you don’t blog, be sure to leave us a thought in the comments.
This week’s theme: The View Behind the Mask.
I’m a lot like Eve. So much it frightens me. In accepting Satan’s lie that God was somehow holding out on her, Eve was forced to wear the mask, play the part.
I’ve done the same.
I’ve walked my own garden, made my choices that disconnected me from God. I, too, have believed it’s better to hide, to lie, than to risk the necessary work of genuine intimacy.
There are those days I fear being found out. Fear being known. Fear being exposed for who I really am. Naked and afraid, I hide under my perfected and polished fig leaf.
For years, I sat quietly hiding my deepest emotions from others, and worse, from myself. The lack of relationship paralyzed me, riddling me with insecurity and hopelessness. In time, I adopted a false voice, put on a “life-is-just-fine, thanks-for-asking” mask while I lived a life on the outside that was deeply divorced from my innermost truth.
I isolated. Sat at home (at work, at church), adjusting my false face. Keep it in check. No one can know. No one will understand—they may even blame me. Now’s not the time to crack.
Meanwhile I did what good Christian women do: buried myself in family, career, and service to others, pretending immunity from any past or present emotional wounds. Too often, I abandoned healthy boundaries at the first sign of resistance while I let the responsibilities of life postpone my dreams.
I can’t help but wonder what would happen if we all just took off our masks and spoke our truths.
Can you imagine how liberating it would feel if life on the outside could actually line up with the person on the inside? That’s God’s plan for us. He longs for us to be who we really are. To find and use our real voices.
Let’s consider some of mask-wearing behaviors and the lies behind them that want to keep us trapped. Have you ever masked your feelings, masked your soul? Why do you think we go to such lengths to hide our true selves?